Coffee Stains and Flower Crowns (Blog)
The past four days I have been hunkering down and writing songs. Again I tumble into self judgement until I realize I don’t have to hold on to my music or creativity so preciously. I simply have to spend the hours honing the craft...allowing it to be....and then letting it go. I’m trying to quickly turn high expectation into appreciation.....appreciation that I have a small window of time to do this...before change comes tumbling in.....again and again......
Expectation holds us on a tightrope of suffering....(weather it’s the expectation we hold over our own heads, or the expectation that others hold over us).....so I write and write....paper upon paper....coffee cup stain marking (with a wink) the last page for today....the flower crown reminding me that life....(although super wildly confusing at times) can be celebrated with some whimsy, comedy, magic....and a whole lot of “giving zero effs”.....learning to laugh at and with myself.....
So today I create without boundaries. And then let it go....let it go.....
I hope that you can create something soon that makes your heart sing. Trash the judgement....and let it fly....
In all honesty....the writing I am putting out is fast and furious.....it’s not perfect or precious.....I’m adding hours to my practice. One letter and one word at a time. Thinking of the long game.....an easeful lumbering marathon.....